"Freshman Year"

Miss Madisyn Ronelle Kleinfelter

FRESHMAN

1st Day 2010-2011 School Year

Pennsylvania

Oh how I miss her, and oh how bittersweeet! I can't believe my grown little girl is now in high school! How time seems to fly by! What I wouldn't give to be going through the "PreSchool Years" as I am this year with Lyza.....accept again with Madisyn! Hang in there Maddy, and I hope it is a great year for you!! Above All.....study hard, and HAVE FUN!

Love,

Your Mama'

Just Be HAPPY!

IN OUR FAMILY, HAVING FUN IS NOT AN OPTION.......IT JUST IS! FOR THAT I AM THANKFUL, FOR WITHOUT A PLAYFUL HEART AND PLAYFUL FAMILY......THAT IS THE ONE THING THAT KEEPS MY HEART BEATING AND KEEPS ME COMING HOME TO SEE MY FAMILY.......FUN, WE ALL NEED IT IN OUR LIVES! IT'S REALLY TOO BAD THAT I HAD TO LET SOME PEOLE SUCK ALL THE FUN OUT OF MY LIFE, BUT THEN AGAIN.....THANKFUL, BECAUSE I WOULDN'T APPRECIATE IT SO MUCH NOW!

Chris and I are blessed with "Fun" Families all around us.....this is just a glimpse of "my" family.......yep, we're a hoot and mama can roll her head, hang her head, cover her eyes and ears......but remember mama, YOU raised us!! (with some help from my dad! ha!).

Also - Thank you to Trish! If it weren't for her help, love, guidance and support these last few months I know my life, my emotions, anxiety would have been through the roof and I'd have been in a spot NO ONE wants to be in! So thank you Trish, from the bottom of my heart. I love how sisters pull through, stop what they are doing to fix the other sister (and I needed a lot of fixin')!!

HAVE FUN.....AND BE HAPPY!

Just be HAPPY!

"When you try to please everyone, you risk losing yourself along the way"......and so, I stopped trying to please EVERYONE.....and guess what, I feel much better! Life has not been a bowl of cherry's lately.....but things are on the mend to where I am at peace and happy again......I've stopped crying every day, that was my biggest hurdle, being completely...emotionally worn out! It can take a toll on a person in a HUGE way. So....I am starting small, taking care of Chris, Lyza, myself......and Madisyn the best I can from far away! This isn't easy, this has been the hardest decision in my life to let this girl go......overwhelmingly, painstakingly hard.......it has put a void in my heart and in my life like I never thought could be there. Will I ever forgive myself......probably not, all in due time I guess. However, she is doing well......and I must take comfort in that and knowing I will get all the FUN visitation. I also need this time to refocus on my marriage and on Lyza......so I am trying to look at some positive sides while trying to get through the pain. Also, truth be told if I did not have my volleyball girls to go to every day, I'd go crazy.....and the fact that I see her friends often hurt at first, now I find comfort in it.

I know I am opening up whole new chapters in my life.....learning about love, forgiveness, heartache, gratitude, honesty, trusting, and finding myself......the "me" that I want to be......not the "me" who everyone wishes me to be!

Summer Family Fun!